I am about as bipolar as they come, im a walking rollar coaster ride, fortunately the manic highs where I can accomplish anything and work 20 hours a day sleep 4 and do it again, far outnumber those very dark days that come with it and they are fucking dark and very hard days to get through. Since I refuse and do not believe in psychiatric medications and I feel they would take away the GIFT of bipolar disorder and anyone who suffers from it knows it is indeed a gift in many way as I am very creative, independent thinking and eccentric because of it, but the trade off is a few dark days every few weeks where I admittedly cant get out of bed or make any sense of the world or reality, they are VERY difficult days to get through but with the support of a loving family I fight through them because I know they are temporary and they are followed by a much longer period of manic highs where my creativety is off the charts, I cant paint, create wonderful artistic visual arts and write like some of the greats. So I know where youre coming from Heroine and I also feel Sam may be fighting something similar to this in fact I think a lot more people than we realize do. Because of my daily work with Buddhist monks and my commitment to daily one hour meditation sessions and yoga, I am able to deal with this without needing the kind of medication that would turn me in to a zombie and make me feel basically nothing, I would rather live the roller coaster and be able to FEEL than to be calm cool and collected all the time and feel no emotion towards anything.
Both Churchill and Lincoln and Poe wrote considerably about their struggles with bi polar disorder yet they also, like me, admit, that without it, they couldnt have been the great men they turned out to be because it was the bi polar disorder itself, that very chemical imbalance in their brains that allowed them to think outside of the box and come up with answers and strategies that a normal person would not be able to think of, so I consider it a blessing and certainly am not prone to violence but I could see where someone who might not have gotten the proper guidance from a therapist like I did who taught me how to deal with this TO MY ADVANTAGE< could really struggle with those VERY VERY DARK days that we who have bipolar disorder experience and make no mistake those days are a struggle and it looks, at the time when they come, like there is no end or sense in the world, but they do pass and a new day arises where you feel invincible and feel capable of doing whatever it is you want to do and you commonly are able to accomplish the extraordinary because of it.
So yea, I dont like the DP because while many of these people DO NOT MEET the criteria of "criminal insanity" which has nothing to do with MEDICAL and is all about LEGAL STANDARDS, but it remains that they are, at least a good portion of them, mentally ill and have mental health issues that they have likely self medicated instead of learning to deal with it properly through medication or, in my case, self help through diet, exercise, meditation and therapy.
Also, like I said before, we have recently found a VERY HIGH PERCENTAGE of people who have spent 30 years on death row and were completely innocent due to false ID or other reasons and THATS A BIG PROBLEM if we are possibly executing someone who is innocent, its the kind of problem, as an attorney, that keeps me awake every fucking night and something I have dedicated my life to bring awareness to, ONE INNOCENT MAN EXECUTED is far too much, but the number is more like in the THOUSANDS and the number of those on death row RIGHT NOW that are COMPLETELY INNOCENT, is probably close to25% and thats A LOT OF PEOPLE my friends, it is enough in my opinion to HALT all DP cases until we can figure out a way to BE CERTAIN those people are 100% guilty before we execute them and with the breakthroughs in forensics and DNA studies we are getting better but not good enough yet and for that VERY REASON ALONE I must stand AGAINST THE DP in all cases, even for the guilty LIKE SAM, until we perfect our system of justice.
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